New Beginnings

Today a guy on the bus chatted me up and told me I was pretty.
In the light of recent events, it made my day. :)

Also today, I asked a very wise young woman for help because I want to pray again and start believing in more than just something. Or try to anyway. I never ask for help, not about that kind of thing anyway, so that was a big thing for me. New beginnings. Small steps. :)
I want to share some verses with you, that have really helped me today.

Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
Psalm 54:4

I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy. Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath!
Psalm 116:1-2

I weep with sorrow; encourage me with your word.
Psalm 119:28

My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?
Why are you so far away when I groan for help?
Every day I call to you, my God, but you do not answer.
Every night you hear my voice, but I find no relief.
Yet you are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
Our ancestors trusted in you,
and you rescued them.
They cried out to you and were saved.
They trusted in you and were never disgraced.
Psalm 22:1-5

(I like psalms! They are easy to relate to, especially for me. :) )


Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous. It is never boastful nor conceited, it is never rude nor selfish, it does not take offence and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fail.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

That is my favourite bible passage ever. It is exactly how I feel about love. The end bit is a bit dedundant at the moment - the bit about being hopeful - because hope my heart cannot manage. Hope is to say there may be a chance, when I know there isn't and getting my hopes up will just hurt me more. But the bit about love not taking offence and not being resentful .. that's important. :)

And here is "Desiderata". I love this. Whatever your beliefs, I think this has an important message:

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.


Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.


Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.


Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.


You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.


I am feeling peaceful. Night night xxx